Life of a HUHsler. You dig?
"We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us."
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1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV
13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
I have to admit, im tired. Im hanging onto this small piece of thread of faith. I just don’t know what to do right now. Whenever i open my bible it seems like im getting yelled at which makes me not want to open it.
i hate the fact that im living and breathing right now. Why was i born? Tired of showing fake smiles while im breaking into pieces inside.Left?right?
Do you hear me LORD? -
When the walls close in around me Let your glory light the darkness in my night When the suffering’s all the I see May I walk with you by faith and not by sightOh You bring hope to the hopeless And light to those in the darkness And death to life Now I’m alive Oh You give peace to the restless And joy to homes that are broken I see You now In You I’m foundBe still, there is a healer His love is deeper than the sea His mercy is unfailing His arms, a fortress for the weak
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With everything happening todayYou don’t know whether you’re coming or goingBut you think that you’re on your wayLife lined up on the mirror, don’t blow it Look at me when I’m talking to youYou lookin’ at me, but I’m lookin’ through youI see the blood in your eyesI see the love in disguiseI see the pain hidden in your prideI see you’re not satisfiedAnd I don’t see nobody elseI see myselfI’m lookin’ at the
Mirror on the wallHere we are again Through my rise and fall You’ve been my only friend You told me that they canunderstand the man I amSo why are we hereTalking to each other again?I see the truth in your liesI see nobody by your sideBut I’m with you when you’re all aloneAnd you correct me when I’m lookin’ wrongI see the guilt beneath the shameI see your soul through your windowpaneI see the scars that remainI see WayneI’m looking at the
Here we are again Through my rise and fall You’ve been my only friend You told me that they canUnderstand the man I am So why are we here Talking to each other again?Looking at me now, I can see my pastDamn, I look just like my fuckin’ DadLight it up, that’s smoke in mirrorsI even look good in a broken mirrorI see my Mama’s smile, that’s a blessingI see the change; I see the messageAnd no message coulda been any clearerSo I’m starting with the man in the
Mirror on the wallHere we are againThrough my rise and fall You’ve been my only friend You told me that they canunderstand the man I amSo why are weTalking to each other again?Mirror on the wallHere we are again Through my rise and fallYou’ve been my only friend You told me that they can Understand the man I am So why are we hereTalking to each other again?Mirror on the wall So why are we talking to each other again? -
I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
‘Cause I feel so defeated
And I’m feeling alone
And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I’m a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing
Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough
It’s my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago
And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he’s needy
Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough -
Why is it so hard for me to trust in You?
Why is it so hard for me to know that I am, was, and will be loved?
why is it so easy for me to believe that you hate me right now?
why is it so easy for me to feel condemned rather then loved?
sometimes i wonder if not following christ wouldve been easier cause then i wouldnt be going through this mess.
f my life.
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im 3 weeks away from being done with sophomore year. That means in 3 months or so i’m going to be a junior. A JUNIOR! wooohooo!!!! a step closer of being done with high school or what i call a “living hell”. But with high school almost not really coming to an end, i have to take the ACTs and decide where i want to go for college. HAHAH!! COLLEGE!! woohoo. Look, i know i joke around about going to COD but i really don’t want to go there. HAIL NAWH! If i can, i really want to go to Loyola and study law there. I HOPE.. I HOPE I GET IN.. OHH JOOOYUHHH!! But any who, i’m nervous and kinda anxious.. I know i know, i say that i’m chill and don’t care about it but i am. WTF, AMERICA! YOU’RE EDUCATION SYSTEM SUCKS! Anyways, im nervous about the future. What if i don’t get into the colleges that i want to go or what if something bad happens to me? Am i gonna end up as a loner? will i have any friends? am i gonna room with a druggie or a crazy roommate who wants to kill me? WTF!!!
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screw my: long term sub chem teacher, geometry teacher, and my spanish teacher. seriously, district 200 you need to get new teachers and fire those who don’t know how to teach. This is the reason why America’s education is behind all the other countries.
SUMMER, WHERE YOU AT?!!!
i could’ve gone to wheaton academy.. too bad it was too effing expensive there.
f.
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